The Men

To whom this may concern,

I told you, rite.. that men are bad. Hopefully you still can remember it. There is no exceptional case, not for you nor my daddy. Naturally, men are just born bad. I realized this fact and no matter how bad you are, I’m not gonna be sad about it because it’s nature and we can hardly change nature. And since it is so hard, let it be.

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I am testing you every day and you dont even notice. I always tell you, never ever ever ever underestimate me. Tonight, u just failed another test. Congrats! You dont have to worry, though. You still have the other two or three years to fail many more tests.

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Whatever you do, credits count.. sometimes you gain and most of the times you lose. As told, that I am staying or leaving depends on you only, yeah.. just you. Hope you wont disappoint me because disappointing me is disappointing yourself.

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~Rain~

បានការពារ ៖ The First of Everything

ប្រកាសនេះ ត្រួវបានការពារ ដោយពាក្យសំងាត់។ ដើម្បីមើលវា សូមបញ្ចូល ពាក្យសំងាត់ របស់អ្នក ខាងក្រោម៖

ពាក្យសម្ងាត់ ៖

THU16FEB2012

dear YOU,

This morning, you gave me a mini HEART ATTACK!

Rain

02JAN2012

Diary,

Today is the second day of twenty twelve. I didnt go anywhere; instead, I spent this whole day joining a workshop, meeting new people, learning new things…

At the end of 2011, I decided to quite a job thinking i will have more time to focus on ma study… but later, i  applied for a seat in the first-and-only debate club of Norton University. I was interviewed, and later selected to become a member of de club. Yeah… I clearly know the club will help nothing much but adding more stress to me…

I am only human… a human who wants fun and never wants to be busy at all.. But after all, all I can do is keeping myself busy. Why should I keep myself free while no one really cares? I, sometimes, wish ma parents or anyone could ask me to take a rest… take some days off… or leave from dat job so that they could spend a day with me… I want to feel that I am wanted not abandoned as these days. I will give it up if there’s somebody just simply ask. BTW, no one will, and it’s sad! Yeah… I can only wish, i knw.

Because I am this busy, no one really asks me out… Friends and even ma own sister went out without me; they said I am too busy to join them. Isn’t it sad? They didnt even text me and asked if I could join… I would have cancelled everything if they just gave me a ring… Yeah… I am not that important, i knw.

02JAN2012 ~ Does life have to be this sad? I feel like crying…

Thanks for spending your time with me diary!

Regards,
Rain

from SOMETHING to NOTHING

It’s hard… it’s really hard. I really dnt knw how to act right… Juz listening to song makes me cry… how come? I juz want to simply feel that you’re right there… talk to you again… But there’s something different. To do the same thing with that DIFFERENCE with you is IMPOSSIBLE, huh?

=from something to nothing=